i find it so hard to like jonghyun from shinee

before i start.. i understand and agree that shinee is nothing without jonghyun. well not nothing, but being the main vocal with one of the most powerful voices ive every heard, hes pretty important. its not like i hate him or anything, but his personality and the little things he does makes it so much harder.

ive always called myself a shawol. a hardcore one tbh. but..i appologize to all the blingers right now. i really am sorry.. but ive seen hello baby, and ive seen all those events, fancams, etc etc.

(the following refers to hello baby season 2. if you havent watched ep 2 (part 4/5), you prob wont know what im talking about) in regards to his reaction when he realized yoogeun wasnt a girl. that hurt. i felt bad for yoogeun for his first impression. he didnt even get more than just a glimpse and he was already judging.  also, when yoogeun was playing with the car/laptop toy taemin bought, on jonghyun’s desk, i got upset when he took away the toy and basically threw it on the ground for him to fetch because taemin didnt want to join his toy with his table. i noticed the smile and laugh while he put the toy on the ground. this shows me that he either, 1. is hiding his “anger” that taemin said no, or 2. he really didnt realize what hes doing, making this a bad habit. but who knows? maybe its because of how instantly attached i get to babies and how i think they should be treated well. theres so many more little incidents ive caught, but i dont have the time. everytime i write about something that bothers me, i feel the need to turn it into proper form.. using the words id use in essays, and state evidents. (see, irl i wouldnt use ‘stated events’. id prob say something like ‘point out my proof’ or something idk..)

anyways, if any blingers read this, i appologize, once again. i really needed to get this off my chest. hopefully, one day ill get passed the hello baby incidents. the show was shot over a year ago anyway. some people change.. but then again, some people dont.