2PM(6) ≠ 2PM(7)

I am a hardcore Hottest and when I first got into 2PM was after Jay left. With that said, the reason why I started my obsession with 2PM are all the old videos and songs when Jaeboem was still a part of the group. After few days of research, only then I found out Jaeboem left the group. For all these times that I spent spazzing about 2PM with my fellow Hottest, I’ve been defending my boys saying 2PM is now better off without Jaeboem and such. But that’s not what I really meant. The truth is, I think the 2PM now ain’t the same anymore… in a more negative way. I kept brain-washing myself, telling everybody that 2PM will always be 2PM with or without Jaeboem… 

I came across 10/10 again, watching Jaeboem being part of the group feels good. Wild bunny and Idol shows were the best. Hottest keeps saying the 2PM Show was hilarious… but I did not agree w/ them. I don’t know if it’s obvious to my fellow Hottest, but to me, the boys are missing lots of laughter that were once there when 2PM was still a Seven. 

Haters and Anti says the boys of 2PM are being cocky now… unlike the humble and give-it-on-in attitude they use to have in their debut days. To this, I defend my boys till the last flower dies no matter what they say. I will defend 2PM by saying “No they’re still as enthusiastic as they used to be” or “It’s okay for them to be cocky now since they’re popular enough now”. I still believe what I said was true… until today. I went watching some of the performance they did recently.. and BANG! this hits me hard, because I’ve finally understand what they meant. 
I hate to say this, and this is the only place and only time I will say this…  2PM no longer put in their 100% on performance as they used to do anymore. Especially Taecyeon, you can see through his eyes knowing that he has this “I don’t care about this performance, fans will continue to love me anyways” attitude. At this point, you can tell he’s just performing the song for the performance sick. 

It’s all gone… the 2PM that I fell in love with… is gone. Sometimes I really wish Jaeboem will return to the group, but looking at how Jaeboem is now… I’ve realized, the Jaeboem we see now isn’t Jaeboem anymore. He is now Jay Park. Jaeboem is gone too… If there’s a time machine like Haha’s right now, I wish everything will go back to when they first debuted. 
I’ve said what I really want to say, so now… I’ll go back to spazz about the boys regardless of all these. I still love them only because it has now become a habit of mine. 

S!B: All my followers know I’m in love with Ok Taecyeon and I often regard myself as Taecyeon’s wife. If I say all these in front of them, they’ll probably ask me to leave the fandom.