So I’ve really fallen in love with Kim Jaeseop from U-Kiss and I know that he is one of the smartest idols out there as he got accepted into an Ivy League school in the states. He also stated that his ideal type would be intelligent.
Whenever I got a score on my test that isn’t no where near what I call ‘high’ I would always think, “Jaeseop would never like you with that score” or “Jaeseop would never get that” or even “You’re just too dumb for him”. I would cry myself to sleep every night at the thought of it, I started to cry at school right after I test I took because I didn’t get ‘good marks’.
I’ve really thought about this and it made me cry at times that I’m not smart enough for him to like me or be with me, even though I know it’s such a fat chance, I still like the feeling of becoming his ideal type, I really do love him. I started obsessing over my test scores and every time I would get something below average I would get really frustrated because I know that I won’t be perfect to him. It went to a point where I had to go into counselling and they thought I was stupid when I told them why I push myself so far and hard. I started loosing hair from the stress I had, I just kept on thinking to myself that I had to be the perfect girl for him. But then I went over the edge, my obsession got too far and I started to cut myself. I’m never going to be his perfect girl now. But I just can’t stop myself.
s!b : It’s only Jaeseop.
s!b2 : Cutting for an idol is stupid.
s!b3 : It would be stupid to tell someone who knows I cut what the reason is.
s!b4 : My followers sure won’t like it.
I don’t know why. First, I’m still not over that Xander and Kibum has left them. Even though I’m really happy seeing them successing with solo projects.
U-Kiss has since their departure felt so empty without them. Something is missing, and I hate people saying that AJ and Hoon came to replace them. I hate the word replace. They can’t be replaced.
All over my dash people are fangirling over the two and I just don’t see what’s so good about them. I think Kiseop was okay since he did a humble entrance and even posted an apology. He’s kind and sensitive.
But AJ and Hoon (the latter especially) in my eyes just takes so much place. Hoon gets all the lines in their new songs now. It feels like he’s the new leader, Soohyun seems to be forgotten.
Jaeseop and Jaevin disgutst me. I. can’t. get it out of my mind.
Seriously U-Kiss has been ruined by them.
s!b, My followers all adore AJ and Hoon
s!b, I don’t want to dislike them, but no one has ever showed me anything about them that has been positive.
I love AJ from U-KISS. I honestly do. Ugh, yes, it might all be fake, the way he is, maybe he just acts like this really chill guy but really is a jerk irl. I saw an unscripted interview he was in, and…. I don’t think so. Anyway.
I don’t love him the way you might think I do. No, I don’t want to marry my oppar and have tiny sqiushy half-white babies with him. I love him the way I imagine I would have loved an older brother, if I had one. I used to suffer from an eating disorder and depression. I still have my weak days, where I just… I just want to die, basically. When I feel completely worthless. When I feel so disgustingly fat, I can hardly take it.
But in the back of my mind, I think “AJ wouldn’t want me to starve myself. AJ would want me to be healthy. AJ loves me and wants me to live my life, not waste away.” And I get motivation enough to make it through. The thought of AJ loving me, his fan, and not wanting me to be hurt, and supporting, and his awesome rapping and personality and music, is extremely soothing.
I want to thank AJ for all the times I wanted to hurt myself, but didn’t. Because of him. I feel motivated and warmer every day knowing that I will keep living, and doing what I love, and staying strong through everything. Because of Kim Jae Seop, I now know I am going to survive.
Hypotenuse, everyone.
sb!: I don’t want my friend who follows my tumblr to know I’m still having a hard time dealing with stuff.
sb!2: It would seem like I rely too much on a Korean idol who I don’t even know and am obsessed with him.
Personally, I’m really happy that AJ and Hoon replaced Alexander and Kibum.
I do admit that Alexander was actually a really good member. He spoke seven languages, which was bound to grab attention. I know it grabbed mine. But at the same time, he did give up the position himself - he even admitted it. I did hear a rumor he did it save another member’s position, so I give him a lot of kudos for that, either way.
But Kibum, on the other hand…
Honestly, what was he talented at? He couldn’t sing or rap, and all of the members could do one or the other. I mean, honestly, I do feel bad for him because he was kicked out without wanting it, but at the same time, he didn’t really fit the whole idol scene. I feel like he works so much better running a company with his brother than he would being an idol, and I’m sure he makes more money, too.
Meanwhile, AJ and Hoon are actually really talented. AJ can rap amazingly (and speak English, which I assume they did to compensate for their removal of one English-speaker - Alexander) and Hoon is an amazing singer. They do not deserve the hate they get for the talent they possess. (Besides, it’s not like they chose to take out Alexander and Kibum themselves.)
s!b: In the beginning, I hated the fact that Alexander and Kibum were discarded so easily and replaced just like that.
s!b: Some people can’t get over the replacement, even though it’s almost been a year now (ten months).
Imma new Kiss-me.
I fell in love with UKISS since 0330. Since then,I keep doing so called research on them.Even the reasons behind ‘kicking’ out of the other 2 members.
I was sooo excited when I heard about UKISS comeback.
But there is something that disappoint me.If you were really observance enough,Eli,had only few lines/rap part compared to AJ,the new member,for their new song,Neverland.
And that is NO FUN! NO FUN!
Well,call me unreasonable. But come on,Eli, was the ORIGINAL UKISS member.He should have more line.Like Kevin.
Before,It was Kiseop. Now,Eli.
Wassup with their company?
Are they practicing bias-ism?
S!B1 Other KISS ME might find me over reacting.
S!B2 I might be bashed!
I really don’t know why but I’m having a harder time accepting AJ into U-Kiss than Hoon. I mean as soon as I found out about Hoon being a new member, I already went “Oh cool! Nice voice! Welcome to the group.” But AJ? Well, let’s just say a huge part of me still wants Alexander to be the rapper other than Eli.
I don’t even have a rational reason. AJ’s good. Sure, I may find that he lacks Xander’s stage charisma, but based on some KissMe friends’ comments, that’s just me.
I guess that will take some time, I suppose.
s!b: A lot of KissMes recognize who I am (don’t ask how). I’m supposed to be a “role model” as an unni to them. Yet, here we are.
I’ve loved U-Kiss since their maknae was in Maknae Rebellion with SHInee, and I’ve been a Kiss Me since a little while after that. Xander’s my bias, and Bummie was at a close second. But after they were force to leave, I was heartbroken. And now…as much as I absolutely love the new songs and the new image, I don’t know if I want to accept the new members.
s!b: It’s not a bad thing to want them to be the Ubiquitous Nine or Forever Seven, is it?
