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THIS SECRET MIGHT NOT BE SUITABLE FOR MINORS! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
Ive been watching the apprentice (British version) and I can’t help but see Hyunseung in one of the contestents. I would put up the picture of her but I’m not sure if I am allowed to. But if you’re curious, go on the bbc apprentice site and list the contestents you will see her, and you will definetly know which one I am talking about (the contestent named Jenna). I feel really creeped out by how much they look alike. Everytime I see her on the show in my mind I am screaming Hyunseung. I’m starting to think that they are distant family members. Or maybe she really is Hyunseung.
s!b: butthurt b2uties will get me (some people get butthurt over anything)
Ever since i had a romantic almost wet dream with Yoseob I really can’t look or hear his voice anymore. I woke up just in time before ‘’the real work’’ started and I am so glad about it. I had romantic/wet dream with other idols before, but those dreams I really liked. I also think that if it was someone else I would have liked it. Waking up and still knowing exactly what happened in the dream was like a nightmare. Even after a few days I still can remember the dream. When I look at picture of him I become teary. I’ve never expected this reaction from myself because I’m a B2utie and Yoseob the reason was why I really started to like BEAST. I think he is really cute but he is not my bias. Doojoon is my bias and I feel that I betrayed him. I want to forget this dream ASAP and listen happily to BEAST songs again.
I had a dream a few nights ago that I was a plastic surgeon and Dongwoo came in crying to me saying that he wanted me to give him tits and… other girl-bits so that he could have Myungsoo’s baby because he wanted to have a baby as beautiful as Myungsoo and as talented as him.
Then the conversation (because apparently I was fine with this O_O) went on to how big his tits were going to be (he decided on C’s because suddenly having DD’s would hurt his back?) and if he was still going to retain his… boy bits… HOW DOES THAT WORK
He left after that because I had another appointment, and Kikwang came in telling me that the womb I had given him wasn’t working because he wanted to have twins- each with the genes of each husband (Junhyung and Doojoon) but they kept being twins of the same gene parent…
Then I woke up screaming.
That was then I realised that I seriously should stop my kpop addiction…
s!b: This is fucking weird and I am so embarrassed for me and my sub conscience.
s!b2: WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME
this really has been bothering me.
i am diehard b2uty. i know how to dance all their songs, sing all their songs and collected both albums and dvds. so, yoseob has been my bias since i joined the b2uty fandom and i swear, you have no idea how much i love this man! i went from reading romance fics to smut fics(im not a pervert :P), tweeting him goodmorning&goodnight etc.
i knew infinite a while ago but im not those people who would legit go find out their real names, birthdays; i only knew their stage names. so i kinda ignored them. then at a b2st fic i was reading at LJ, infinite made an appearance. Myungsoo was very helpful in the fic and he saved Hyunseung and Kikwang when they were in the bathroom escaping from the guards.
so from that fic, it lead me to reading infinite fics. i’ve told this to myself; if you’re not part of their fandom, you’re not allowed to read any smut fics. cause i feel its going overboard. but i broke that rule. ive been reading a lot of myungsoo smut fics and fics that consist of infinite and no beast.
it feels like i kinda threw beast away. everytime i see a beast post on my dash, i would like it. but whenever its a myungsoo or infinite post, i freak out and automaticallly reblog the post. i think i disgraced the fandom. im a horrible b2uty. and the fact that i dont wannnna telll my friend this bcoz she is a hardcore b2uty and inspirit and both love my biases; which is seob and myung.
and im still questioning myself whether or not i shouould join the inspirit fandom.
s!b im no a inspirit. i thought dongwoo had ugly teeeth, hoya had a very evil smile, woohyun is trying, sunggyyu .. was there, sungyeol probabbly dont have lines to sing and sungjong was gay. the only one who caught my eye was myungsoo.
s!b2 if any inspirit read what i listed up there ^, im gonna get shot
s!b3 but i dont think it that way anymore. i used to, when i saw them at a glance. i know i shouldnt be judgging. dont bash me inspirits.
s!b4 my friend will also shoot me if i tell her i love both her biases. i have to fake everything and tell her i love woohyun and dujun.
since i’ve been an ELF for so long, i don’t scream and squeal when i see them and i don’t really ship any pairings anymore. i think i see SJ as my brothers now, so i can freely insult them. and they’re not really good-looking in my opinion, but i love them like it’s unconditional.
i’ve been an inspirit for a while and i squeal at every little detail. they are like my crushes and i just think ‘bitch gonna die’ when another inspirit says they like a member.
and then there’s beast. beast is like on a pedestal and i feel as though they are so far from me that i am too worthless to even be within their presence.
s!b i already feel like a crappy ELF for thinking this way
at first im not really a fan of kpop,but last year i started to listen to some kpop songs and i think that kpop is not that bad at all.i think some of the kpop songs are good too.so my first kpop group that i like is beast,and ultimate bias is yosoeb,so i told to my kpop fans friends that he is my ultimate bias and it turned out that one of them likes yoseob the most.and when she knew that i like yosoeb the most too and she was like “no!!!you cant like him!!he’s mine!!go like someone else!!”.wtf?at first i thought she was only joking about what she said,but i turns out she really mean it.she started to be more cold towards me now.JUST BECAUSE I LIKE YOSOEB THE MOST.what the actual fuck.and i noticed that some of the kpop fans are like that.seriously,wtf is wrong with (some of) you guys??i believe that i have the right to like anybody that i want.she’s acting like yoseob is ivented for her.yoseob doesnt even know that she exist yet she’s acting like yosoeb is her boyfriend or something.omg i hate fans like that the most.
s!b:i dont want my followers to get offended so i posted this here.to the kpop fans who read this,please dont be mad at me.dont get me wrong,i say some of kpop fans,not all kpop fans.
recently,i’ve seen so much post about the tumblr people are going to the beautiful show concert in singapore.they show off their tickets,etc.and today they post some fancams and post about how happy they’re.and all i can do is sit in front of my pc and see how happy the other people are.im not lying,i really cried when i post this.im so jealous towards those people.they can go see beast live,buy their albums and merchandise,and all i can do is support them from behind and fangirl over the fancams.all i can do is smile when they smile,laugh when they laugh,and cry when they cry.and make fantasies about me and them in my head that would never happen.that’s all i can do,because i fucking live in narnia.for the other kpop fans,i know some of you felt this way right?
p/s: sorry for my bad english.its not my first language
s!b: i dont want my friends to know that i cried because of my jealousy
I find Yoseob’s “cute” image… Irritating. Not because I hate idols who do aegyo, but because Yoseob’s aegyo seems really fake to me. It seems like he does aegyo simply because people (i.e fans, company etc.) expect him to do it, or in the company’s case probably TELL him to. I’ve seen him when dancing and performing and he is really charismatic and surprisingly cool. For example, in the Breath MV and the live performances for Breath. His longer spiky black hair made him look so much cooler and “fiercer” than those lame bowl cuts that he sometimes gets. He would look so much better in the Fiction MV without the ugly orange-blonde little boy cut. He doesn’t even seem to enjoy acting cute. I think he should stop trying to do what people expect of him and just be himself. Because he has a lot of “fierce” potential (which was the group’s original image that caused him to get kicked out of B2ST for a while) but he doesn’t use it and it bothers me. s!b: This is a secret because many b2ties fawn over his aegyo and do not look at the other sides of him. I always see comments like “he’s so cute!!!” or “he’s adorable I just want to squeeze him!!” so, obviously many people would disagree with my opinion.
s!b: One is blatant fangirl pandering meant to be a joke while the other is supposed to be a legit performance. Oops.
