Dreams

I had a dream a few nights ago that I was a plastic surgeon and Dongwoo came in crying to me saying that he wanted me to give him tits and… other girl-bits so that he could have Myungsoo’s baby because he wanted to have a baby as beautiful as Myungsoo and as talented as him.

Then the conversation (because apparently I was fine with this O_O) went on to how big his tits were going to be (he decided on C’s because suddenly having DD’s would hurt his back?) and if he was still going to retain his… boy bits… HOW DOES THAT WORK

He left after that because I had another appointment, and Kikwang came in telling me that the womb I had given him wasn’t working because he wanted to have twins- each with the genes of each husband (Junhyung and Doojoon) but they kept being twins of the same gene parent…

Then I woke up screaming.

That was then I realised that I seriously should stop my kpop addiction…

s!b: This is fucking weird and I am so embarrassed for me and my sub conscience.

s!b2: WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

I read a fanfic and in the story Junhyung has a girlfriend. The gf was meant to be the reader but I cant help to think its Hara instead. As I read on L has a crush on Junhyungs gf and he becomes emo when he sees them two with eachother being lovey dovey. Even L.Joe develops a crush on her and he too becomes sad about it. Now I can’t help to think this is real that L and L.Joe really has secret feelings for Hara.

s!b: this sounds stupid. I even swore never to read fanfics cause I have friends who reads them and they turned into crazy fangirls over night. Now I feel like a stupid hypocrite. I’m starting to be butthurt about Junhyung dating Hara. I can’t accept it.

when i found out that junhyung was dating harhar i flipped out. the next the i went to school  i beat up anyone who pissed me off. and then i went out in the street adn if anyone was rude or gave me weird looks i punched them and ran. now everyone at school is scared of me. and i take advantage of their fear and use it to get money so i can buy hara and junhyung merch so i can burn

I WANT YONG JUNHYUNG TO BE MY BIOLOGICAL (Younger) BROTHER FROM MY DAD WHO DONATED HIS SPERM CELLS TO SOME UNCLE WHO WAS IMPOTENT.

s!b: It sounds like some twisted fanfic.

s!b2: I’m younger than him but I want to be his noona. Even for just a couple of months.

Falling In Love With An Idol

I have seriously fallen for B2ST’s Yong Junhyung. I’m not even kidding.

There’s just something about him that draws me in. I mean, at first he was my least favorite member in B2ST ‘cause I thought he was a really cold and mean person, but now, everytime I see him, I start squealing like an annoying fan girl. It’s totally OOC of me ‘cause I’m usually a calm and quiet person, kinda like Junhyung himself.

But I seriously have no idea how I started loving him in the first place. I mean, I usually like the naive and innocent types like Lee Joon, Taemin and Donghae, but also with a mixture of the loud, crazy ones like Daesung, Seunghyun and Mir. I’ve always HATED the mysterious, bad boy type, which is exactly what Junhyung is.

So, why the hell did I fall in love with him!?

Ok, I gotta admit, when I first heard the news about him dating Goo Hara, I was seriously mad. I even started thinking about being an anti fan of Hara, but I knew that it would get me nowhere. I mean, it’s not like she’s gonna care anyway. And besides, she’s way prettier and fun to be with, compared to someone like me. So I’m happy for them to be together. But it’s obviously breaking my heart to see them together.

I’ve never felt this way before. Well, except for the time when I had my first love, but that was a long, long time ago. Yong Junhyung is the first ever k-pop idol that made me feel this way. Ever. And I’ve been listening to k-pop for quite a while now.

He never ever leaves my head, his smile makes me happy, his frown makes me sad, the sound of his voice makes me crave for more and just the thought of him makes me smile. Yeah, I’ve seriously got it bad.

I know that it sounds silly for being in love with a person that I haven’t even met, but I can’t help it. Love is just something you can’t control. And it just hurts me even more to know that I probably will never ever get a chance to meet him, let alone be in a relationship with him.

S!b: My friends will obviously laugh at me if they ever find out.

Come back to reality!

What is wrong with you people?! Who am I talking about? Those people out there that hates on Hara and the whole Junra couple thing and sitting in front of the computer and ranting about it on the internet. CAN YOU SHUT UP!? I just don’t  understand how you can hate on some one that you’ll never talk to, someone who you know nothing of, someone who you’ll probably never going to meet in your life. I feel sorry for Hara, having people who she’ll never meet hate her and blame her for causing something that are none of their business and have no right to add in their opinions.

I hate it how every time I go on my tumblr dashboard and see stupid, idiotic, childish rant saying “I love & will forever ship JunSeung and personally i don’t give a fuck about Hara”, “she was the cause of Hyunseung being so gloomy”, “You ‘dating’ Junhyung, although it looks so fake,”, “could KILL(not really ㅠ.ㅠ)hara for this..” How can you people be so CRUEL?! Do you believe that since she’s plastic she has no emotion and is not a human being anymore? How can you blame her for what happen is with Junhyung and Hyunseung? Can you read mind and know for sure it because of her? Were you there?

Can you calm down, come back to reality and realize what who’ve being saying and how your word are unreasonable and how you not just hurting Hara but all so her fan? 

s!b: every time I see any hate post about Hara and Junra couple I just  tell others that it okay I just ignore it and say it doesn’t hurt me. But it does and i just wish delusional fans would just grow up and be mature for once.