I’m a hardcore fan. Mostly I’m a shawol, and also an ELF, and a b2ty. I go to concerts, buying the most expensive seats (no, I’m not rich). Buying their cds and dvds. And recently I became an EXO fan.

I keep having this feeling that I’m becoming less and less interested to Super Junior and Beast. I don’t watch their new MVs and read news about them. I actually want to unfollow them on twitter now.

But I feel bad, I don’t know why but I do. It’s like if I leave the two fandoms (Suju and B2st) for a new fandom (EXO), it will be something like a betrayal to the fandom and to my friends from those fandoms.

s!b: almost everyone I follow and talk to in twitter is either a shawol, b2ty or an ELF. The’re my friends online and some in real life. I don’t want to loose them just because I chose EXO over Suju or Beast.

s!b: It’s really shallow to think like this and to ponder this over.     

Kyuhyun - Even ELF like to put him down

It makes me a little sad that people just always assume that people always praise Kyuhyun (to them probably unfairly) and so they want to elevate the other members and/or it becomes a reason why they like some other members or other singers for their vocal talents over Kyuhyun.

As a Kyuhyun stan, I don’t praise or defend him vocally anymore because I feel that it would annoy other ELF, even though I read a lot of ELF and non-ELF saying that so and so are so much better than Kyuhyun.

I don’t mind the differing opinions. However, sometimes I feel that it’s due to them thinking he is given too much attention or that people praise him too much and not due to fairly judging him (the I want to be the person to like the underdog sort of thing). To me it feels the opposite, he’s the one people always criticize and say is over-rated, etc. He is not the one people always praise, among Super Junior or kpop generally.  I feel like it’s a little unfair for him.  

I don’t know anymore if people are prefering/liking other members/kpop idols over him, ignore him or praise other members’/kpop idols’ vocal talents because they think Kyuhyun is being given too much attention or if they genuinely think so. I wouldn’t make this secret if I thought many of the judgments were genuine feelings based on fairly judging him. The reason for this post is because I think they (ELF and non-ELF alike) feel some sort of grudge or have a biased judgment against him or I don’t know what against Kyuhyun.  

I read little snide comments even from ELF and this saddens me a little on his behalf.  

Even ELF don’t give him a chance or try to know him better. I am sometimes shocked by how little even some ELF, let alone non-ELF, know of him and say things or assume things about his character that is just not him at all. 

s!b I wanted to air out my feelings but I don’t want to tell anyone this myself.

s!b I couldn’t have this conversation with anyone and not be seen has some crazy Kyuhyun stan.

s!b The only people I know who are into Kpop are among those I’m making this secret about, so I can’t post this anywhere else.

I’m not that familiar with kpop but when I was looking through a tumblr tag I found this blog (kpop secrets)… and I have a secret to tell.

Lately, or tbh around almost a year now I’ve been getting more and more into kpop, meeting new friends and finfing new interests and starting to like the music. But isn’t the music the thing you get into first(other than looks sometimes i guess) 

For me it wasn’t. How I orginally found kpop was through a random video on youtube… and I masturbated to it. Sure I’m a girl and apparently we aren’t supposed to masturbate that much or whatever, but I do it kinda often every night. 

Either way, the video was a fanvideo who someone put together with different clips and the video was… really hot. I’ve kind of gotten tired of porn, just a dick slamming into something, or girls on girls. It’s all started to get boring and I needed something new. 

I don’t think I’ve orgasmed that hard ever… it was awesome. I later lurned that what I was masturbating to was a fan-couple, eunhae. Eunhyuk and Donghae from a band called Super Junior. 

example of videos: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?&v=kxiz_oing1E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BU57oLSYoB4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oo1JpYS2pM

And later I found my self starting to get into them more, I would watch fan-videos with good clips and music that fit and bam, I was happier than ever, haha.

But now, that I’m starting to get into kpop I don’t exactly wanna tell the reason how I found them, why I started to like kpop and yeah, even though I’m not that embarrassed by it I know there are like A LOT innocent kpop fans out there. 

But one more thing I discovered, is that eunhae fans seem to get like… bullied? Being delusional. I get it, those two guys in the videos I fap to aren’t gay, I know. But that “fake” chemistry they have when they perform, it’s what gets me off, literally. And one more thing I like about them and the videos I watch, they’ve never kissed. They do the after things only it seems like, idk, but the other “popular” couples in kpop have like at least kissed once, or fake kissed or whatever. There haven’t.

s!b: I don’t wanna post on my blog I’m a porn-maniac.. which I kind of am.

s!b: my blog doesnt have much kpop and if i post this, and eunhae i’ll get called delusional i guess.. even though I don’t see myself as a regular shipper since I’m just here, mostly to fap. 

super show in tokyo dome

i think super show in tokyo dome is a huge mistake from SME, super junior didnt work hard to get to sing there, it was really easy for them and it doesnt reflect well on them, they should desrve it and not just perform there without deserving it, the only kpop groups that performed there worked hard for years to deserve it and it wasnt as easy for them as it’s for SJ now

something else, super junior are irrelevant in Japan, i am pretty sure the concert will be filled with fans from korea and south east asia but not japan, i dont like the fact that SM is using this concert to prove that super junior are big in japan when they are obviously not

s!b: elf are really  happy with this concert and they’ll hate me if i posted this in my blog 

this is an anonynous post

I dreamt of Siwon. He texted me a very long message but then I can’t understand what he told me so I called him. I asked him if he’s sure that I won’t get pregnant of what he did. Our conversation ended assuring me that I won’t get pregnant.

s!b I am not a Siwon fan, I am a Ryeowook fan

s!b my followers know for not being perverted

EXO-K

i heard that EXO-K are going to sing sorry sorry in dream concert, i really hope that they will sing it better than Super Junior so that ELF will hopefully stop all the hate and bashing they are giving EXO when they see how talented these boys are

s!b: i am really upset with all the hate that EXO get from ELF and i dont want to mention EXO and SJ in the same line in my blog not to get attacked by ELF 

SNSD is the female version of Super Junior…

i hate it a lot when people say that SNSD are the female version of Super Junior 

- SNSD is the nation’s girl group, SJ is not, Big Bang is

-SNSD is the most popular korean girl group in Japan, SJ is not, TVXQ is

-SNSD is the most popular girl group in Asia, SJ is not, TVXQ and Big Bang are

-SNSD is the most popular korean girl group in the USA, SJ is not, Big Bang is

even when we talk about their talents, SNSD is way more talented than Super Junior, i know that Eunhyuk is a good dancer but come on he cant compare to Hyoyeon, he himself said that he learned many stuff from her, and SNSD has more than one amazing dancer, they have Yoona, Yuri and Sooyoung while SJ has… no one, just Eunhyuk and Hangeng left so i wont count him,

In acting, Yoona’s acting is way better than Siwon’s

and the most important thing, the vocals, i hate it the most when people say Taeyeon, Jessica and Tiffany are the female version of KRY!!!! i mean wth? i know KRY are decent singers and all, but please, they cant be compared to Taeyeon for example. Taeyeon was ranked as the best female vocalist  last year by experts but Yesung wasnt. and look at TaeTiSeo now, i dont think KRY can pull off those amazing vocals

and SNSD has more than 3 amazing vocalists, they have Seoyoong and Sunny too, they are both amazing, Yuri and Sooyoung are good vocalists too but they dont get enough lines to show their real talent 

the only thing they have in common imo is that they are both under SM and they are both good in variety shows like what people say about them because honestly i dont find SJ that good in variety too. and even that doesnt make SNSD the female version of SJ

so i really hope people stop saying that, it really irritates me and honestly i find it a bit insulting to SNSD (sorry for saying that) but they are totally in a different level and cant be compared to them, even their stage presence cant be compared

s!b1: people will say i am trying to create fanwars, but i dont want that to happen, i just want to take this off my chest since it really irritates me alot

s!b2: i dont want people to attack my blog and bash me for only stating my opinion