delusional dream

i’m an inspirit and my jonghyun is my bias. i got a weird and a really beautiful dream for 2 days after watching WGM. in my dream i’m appear on WGM with jonghyun and i’m a solo artist from woollim. the first night i dreamt about we got a home and we invite out ‘family’ so jonghyun invited shinee and since i’m a solo artist i invited infinite and babysoul and yojia. in my dream i was infinite’s super precious dongsaeng even more precious than jiae(infinite’s sister in YAMO) and we are very close and we have a real intimate relationship and skinship.

the second night i dream about jonghyun actually falling for me and we leave WGM and got married for real instead. jonghyun is my ultimate bias and this is the best dream in my life

sorry for bad english, english is not my 2nd language

s!b: in my country, when dreaming about marriage means he/she is not your soulmate so i am actually a bit brokenheart

s!b: i really wish my dream do come true

To ALL Fandoms…

Dear fandoms,

  I solemnly know that you get angry and your instinct to start a killing spree just got triggered when an anonymous person bash your idol whether individually or as a group.

  I know, it’s hard to swallow the fact that this person found a flaw on our idols, after all the time we thought that they were perfect. They’re humans, and humans are made imperfect. And, haters gonna hate.

  But please, contain your anger, you’re only making the person happy because he/she reached his objective. What is this objective you ask? TO SHOW THAT THE FANDOM IS IMMATURE. That’s the point. And when they say your fandom is immature, you deny and deny and then they just pop this up and then you’ll be speechless because the truth is right in front of your eyes. Don’t you think this’ll happen? 

  I have a friend, and she’s a massive Blackjack. In our school, there’s this one person who, oh I don’t know, having issues with 2NE1. Shortly, she’s a hater. She bombarded my friend with hate remarks, told her that 2NE1’s good for nothing, spat at her saying that CL’s ugly and stuff. But my friend kept calm, and even smiled at all the hate stuff. One day this hater confronted my friend and had a little talk, and you know what ended it? My friend just said, “You just need to keep calm and feel their love more.” LOL trust me, the hater went speechless. And then my friend sat the hater through a few brainwashing sessions and lo and behold! The hater’s now running one of the finest 2NE1 tumblogs on tumblr :)

  So you see, there’s no need of violence or harsh words to protect your fandom/idols from haters/antis. It’s simple, you just need to KEEP CALM & LOVE THEM.

s!b: Idk and Idc if people take this for granted but whenever someone’s bashing my idols/fandoms, I’ll just leave a comment saying, “Keep calm and try to feel their love.”

s!b: I’m actually a multi-fandomed, I’m an ELF, Shawol, VIP, Blackjack, Inspirit, Angel, ZE:A’s, A+, KissMe, Bestfriend, BANA, BBC, ForU, Boice, LEDA, Primadonna, MYGirl, and recently a Baby. So I run a few fanbase tumblogs and it’s saddening to see my fandoms bashing each other :’(   

Kpopadvice.com (is there even one? cause there needs to be)

Okay, so my friend and I have been family friends since 5eva. And I consider her a sister to me and one of my closest friends.

Cool. Background info done.

Last year, we met Shinee because we were stalking them and any other kpop idols through the city when they were here for the Sydney Kpop Fest last November. Anyways, we met them… not really, they just kind of waved in our general direction. But my friend SWEARS that Taemin and Jonghyun waved only at her…

yeah.

Then after that, we went to the Kpop fest and when Shinee was performing, Jonghyun was looking around the whole audience smiling, obviously happy to be there. But my friend swore that he was looking for her cause he remembered her from the day before…

From there, things have been going downhill. She became so self-obsessed about her appearance. When we would watch Shinee videos together and they would meet fans or talk about pretty girls, she would scoff and say that they’re ‘fucking losers’ and ‘ass-faced bimbos’ compared to how she looks. 

Once during mufti-day, my other friend commented that I looked good in my outfit, as girls do. My friend however, said really sarcastically, ‘Don’t think so. She’s not the one that Shinee think is hot.’

I was slightly offended by that.

When I confronted her behaviour nicely, all she said was that I was jealous because I could never get a boyfriend and because she was the hotter one that kpop idols were infatuated with…

And now, she’s going to Korea (she’s not Korean) to visit the SM building and Shinee’s dorms because she thinks that once they recognise her, they’ll make her famous and one of them will become her boyfriend.

She told her parents she’s going for a gap year to learn more about Eastern education…

So, I need advice. How do I tell her that she’s acting like a complete and utter anus and a total deluded idiot without losing her friendship? 

s!b: She is my close friend and despite her (major) faults, I do like her a lot and we’re family friends.

s!b2: She is the type that hold grudges. She stills resents me for telling her crush that she ate worms. I was 8. We are not 19. 

Not aloud to listen to other genres?

My Asian friends, who aren’t Korean, and my one white friend, think you’re not aloud to listen to any other kind of music if you’re into Kpop. 

I’ll be listening to my iPod, and one of them will take one of my headphones and listen to it. They’ll rip the head phone out of there ear, and say “Why are you listening to white-trash music”. I am white myself, and I told them, “Because I’m WHITE”. They’ll then change the subject. 

Another day, they were all at my house. I went out of the room to talk to my parents. When I came back in they were all on my computer, on my iTunes. I asked them what they were doing and they responded, “I’m deleting all this White-trash music, and your Jpop music”. I became angry, and told them all to leave. As they walked out, they called me a “Wannabe Kpop fan”.

I started listening to EXO-M when they came out. They told me, “Don’t listen to them, most of them are Chinese”. Two of my friends are Chinese, they told me, “We left our music for Kpop”.

I was so fucking confused. I asked them whats wrong with listening to OTHER music other than KPOP. They told me I’m not a true fan because I have to stick to one genre. I couldn’t take them anymore and I left them for my other friends.

S!B they follow me on Tumblr, and I don’t want them to know this is the reason why I stopped talking to them as much.

S!B They’ll probably get there Tumblr ‘friends’ to attack me if I admit this to them.

LOVE LIFE

I think i’m ruining mine & is no one else’s fault just MINE.

before I used to spazz about boys from school, neighbour, parties, etc.

but now I just can’t see other boys as potential boyfriends/ husbands but only idols ><.

I MEAN WHAT? THIS IS SO DELUSIONAL, IS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN yet I would always think other boys are not worth it, only my fave idols, everytime I’m starting to like boys and get all the feelings and flirty situations appear I think that if I get a boyfriend what about them? they don’t have grilfriends so why would I? SO when If I get all lovey~dovey, I stop at a point I would never flirt with a guy, so nothing more happens with guys, and I start thinking I don’t need a boyfriend! just their perfect faces, voices, dancing and performances <3.

the sad part is that probably all of them already have girlfriends .________. so…

should I stop? I don’t want to, it makes me happy!  but logic says I should.

s!b: to my friends it doesn’t seem like I have this kind of obsession, not to this point. they would never suspect since they aren’t fans of anything .-.

s!b: the pressure society puts on you for having a bf or gf is so HUGE that sometimes I feel out of place with out one

I’m starting to become one of those fans who wishes she could date her bias…

Before, I was just a supportive fan, but as I’ve watched more shows and seen more, I’m starting to really adore my bias’ personality, smile…everything. Part of me wishes I could go to Korea, meet him somehow, and become friends with him or be able date him…he just seems like the right kind of guy for me.

I know it will never happen, of course, but I feel ashamed for even daydreaming about dating him or leaving an impression on him when he’s thousands of miles away and he’ll likely never even see my face. I’ll always just be one of his many fans in the concert crowd.

s!b. I’m pretty embarrassed to admit this anywhere but here, where I can stay anonymous.

s!b2. I’m afraid I’d be called delusional or lose followers if I talked about this on my blog.

My Friend is Crazy.

I got into Kpop a year ago or two. But before I was into Kpop I was into Jpop.

I introduced my friend to Jpop, and she oddly started being freaky with it. Everywhere we would go, she would pretend idols were with it. She’d talk to a chair, and pretend they were actually there.
Then I decided to move to Kpop, not telling her about it so she doesn’t do the same she did before. Of course I was stupid enough to talk to my other friend about SHINee on Facebook,and it became worse.
She literally came the school next day, and showed me SHINee’s Hello on her iPod, and started playing it out loud. She then thought it would be funny if she pretended the members were with us.

So she’d yell random things like, “JONGHYUN AND KEY, STOP MAKING OUT”. It’s really embarrassing. I tried to avoid her and it didn’t work. EVERYTIME she finds a new Kpop band, she’ll pretend the members of the band are following us. 

She embarrasses me in front of everybody, including my other friends that like Kpop. I told her to stop, and I called her annoying. She just glared at me and told me, “Well that really sucks for you now, doesn’t it?” 

I’ve told her off many times, and told her to stop following me around if shes going to be all weird about Kpop. I think she’s there purposely to ruin my life.

S!B She follows me on my Tumblr, and she’d probably be pissed If I would post this about her.

I think a black person can debut in k-pop.

Of course, if they were extremely pretty and talented. I don’t see the difference between a thai or chinese person debuting in k-pop (Amber,Victoria,Nickhun…) and an african-american person debuting in k-pop. I mean, they both don’t speak korean or come from a korean family. I know that there’s Michelle Lee (half black, half korean) from ‘K-pop Star’ and she is extremely talented but let’s be serious, she doesn’t fit the ‘idol image’ that k-pop has set up. If she did, she would be perfect to debut in a girl group or even as a soloist promoting in Korea. If people like korea’s popular music and their culture, why can’t other cultures be a part of it and contribute to it? It could also help with the ‘homogeneousness’ that exists there today. S.K is unfortunately very ignorant when it comes to other races and bases their opinions off stereotypes. It really isn’t their fault, most of the population is Korean so they don’t have many opportunities to experience other cultures. Anyways, I think it’d be awesome and unique to have an african-american person in k-pop as someone who appreciates the korean culture and listens to the music instead of as a ‘koreaboo’ or someone with an ‘asian fetish’. One more thing, I have this feeling that one of the big three (YG,JYP and SM) is going to follow up on this idea soon whether they’re debuting an ‘international’ group in korea or even globally.

s!b: K-pop fans are gonna think I’m delusional and trying to ruin the image of k-pop EL OH EL.

s!b: the amount of hate I’d get for this if I posted this on my blog would be hilarious.

I Don’t Claim Fandoms…

I have never been one to claim a fandom. When I first got into Kpop I wanted to be apart of all of them, but once I had finally gotten “INTO” K-pop I realized just how dark a lot of these fandoms really are. I still don’t fully understand the Black Ocean situation. I personally like at least 25 different Boy Bands(thats not including the occassional fangirling of girl groups too) So I really can’t choose to be in any one, because according to the unwritten rule of most fandoms you can only show loyalty to one fandom and just like the other. (Believe you me I don’t believe that bull one bit) 

But this isn’t exactly my problem. My problem with fandoms lie with the fact that people like me with love for multiple groups and don’t claim a fandom are seen as unloyal and are looked down upon. Just because I don’t call myself a -insert group name here- Doesn’t mean I love that group any less than you. 

I’ve been seeing a lot of people from one of those hardcore fandoms ridiculing people like me, but their LOYAL Fandom is losing people to a newer younger band. I love both of those bands and I would never abandon either group for the other when I know i can share my love and support with both. 

I’m just tired of all these fandoms being so judgemental. It’s really a wonder that people still join fandoms in droves anyways. Not all of them, but a lot of them seem to be pretty controling. You have to follow all their rules or you aren’t considered one of them. If you don’t like member then you aren’t a true ____. If you don’t like this particular song then you aren’t a true _____.

I’m just fed up with the fandom crud. Just love a group. All this I’m a ____ and only a ____. It’s annoying. I hate to see what those sort of peoples ipod and cd collection look like. I bet you it’s lonely. 

I dunno… I’m sorry for all the ranting, but I had to let that out.

S!B: My friend blew a gasket when I told her once that I was in one particular fandom and I didn’t like a member.

S!B: I’m been chewed out too many times for all of the things above and I just to have the strength to fight back anymore.

I want to “clean” k-pop like I want to clean a clutter-filled room

It’s just that there’s too many new groups nowadays. It irks me. I wouldn’t mind it if they’re actually contributing something new and fresh into the game. But no. Sure there are VERY FEW exceptions, but there are only VERY FEW (I’m not naming any of them but I think everyone knows who these groups are). It’s just the same generic boring pop sounds with pretty faces, a few rap sequences, and some English phrases added to the mix, which we’ve heard and seen from veteran groups before and have done/can do so much better. It’s like they have no real purpose in K-pop other than to expand its market. They bring no real competition and no real contribution to the music. They are just clutter. It’s like K-pop is going backwards. It makes me very mad.

s!b: these new groups have fans too