delusional dream

i’m an inspirit and my jonghyun is my bias. i got a weird and a really beautiful dream for 2 days after watching WGM. in my dream i’m appear on WGM with jonghyun and i’m a solo artist from woollim. the first night i dreamt about we got a home and we invite out ‘family’ so jonghyun invited shinee and since i’m a solo artist i invited infinite and babysoul and yojia. in my dream i was infinite’s super precious dongsaeng even more precious than jiae(infinite’s sister in YAMO) and we are very close and we have a real intimate relationship and skinship.

the second night i dream about jonghyun actually falling for me and we leave WGM and got married for real instead. jonghyun is my ultimate bias and this is the best dream in my life

sorry for bad english, english is not my 2nd language

s!b: in my country, when dreaming about marriage means he/she is not your soulmate so i am actually a bit brokenheart

s!b: i really wish my dream do come true

To ALL Fandoms…

Dear fandoms,

  I solemnly know that you get angry and your instinct to start a killing spree just got triggered when an anonymous person bash your idol whether individually or as a group.

  I know, it’s hard to swallow the fact that this person found a flaw on our idols, after all the time we thought that they were perfect. They’re humans, and humans are made imperfect. And, haters gonna hate.

  But please, contain your anger, you’re only making the person happy because he/she reached his objective. What is this objective you ask? TO SHOW THAT THE FANDOM IS IMMATURE. That’s the point. And when they say your fandom is immature, you deny and deny and then they just pop this up and then you’ll be speechless because the truth is right in front of your eyes. Don’t you think this’ll happen? 

  I have a friend, and she’s a massive Blackjack. In our school, there’s this one person who, oh I don’t know, having issues with 2NE1. Shortly, she’s a hater. She bombarded my friend with hate remarks, told her that 2NE1’s good for nothing, spat at her saying that CL’s ugly and stuff. But my friend kept calm, and even smiled at all the hate stuff. One day this hater confronted my friend and had a little talk, and you know what ended it? My friend just said, “You just need to keep calm and feel their love more.” LOL trust me, the hater went speechless. And then my friend sat the hater through a few brainwashing sessions and lo and behold! The hater’s now running one of the finest 2NE1 tumblogs on tumblr :)

  So you see, there’s no need of violence or harsh words to protect your fandom/idols from haters/antis. It’s simple, you just need to KEEP CALM & LOVE THEM.

s!b: Idk and Idc if people take this for granted but whenever someone’s bashing my idols/fandoms, I’ll just leave a comment saying, “Keep calm and try to feel their love.”

s!b: I’m actually a multi-fandomed, I’m an ELF, Shawol, VIP, Blackjack, Inspirit, Angel, ZE:A’s, A+, KissMe, Bestfriend, BANA, BBC, ForU, Boice, LEDA, Primadonna, MYGirl, and recently a Baby. So I run a few fanbase tumblogs and it’s saddening to see my fandoms bashing each other :’(   

I’m a hardcore fan. Mostly I’m a shawol, and also an ELF, and a b2ty. I go to concerts, buying the most expensive seats (no, I’m not rich). Buying their cds and dvds. And recently I became an EXO fan.

I keep having this feeling that I’m becoming less and less interested to Super Junior and Beast. I don’t watch their new MVs and read news about them. I actually want to unfollow them on twitter now.

But I feel bad, I don’t know why but I do. It’s like if I leave the two fandoms (Suju and B2st) for a new fandom (EXO), it will be something like a betrayal to the fandom and to my friends from those fandoms.

s!b: almost everyone I follow and talk to in twitter is either a shawol, b2ty or an ELF. The’re my friends online and some in real life. I don’t want to loose them just because I chose EXO over Suju or Beast.

s!b: It’s really shallow to think like this and to ponder this over.     

Kpopadvice.com (is there even one? cause there needs to be)

Okay, so my friend and I have been family friends since 5eva. And I consider her a sister to me and one of my closest friends.

Cool. Background info done.

Last year, we met Shinee because we were stalking them and any other kpop idols through the city when they were here for the Sydney Kpop Fest last November. Anyways, we met them… not really, they just kind of waved in our general direction. But my friend SWEARS that Taemin and Jonghyun waved only at her…

yeah.

Then after that, we went to the Kpop fest and when Shinee was performing, Jonghyun was looking around the whole audience smiling, obviously happy to be there. But my friend swore that he was looking for her cause he remembered her from the day before…

From there, things have been going downhill. She became so self-obsessed about her appearance. When we would watch Shinee videos together and they would meet fans or talk about pretty girls, she would scoff and say that they’re ‘fucking losers’ and ‘ass-faced bimbos’ compared to how she looks. 

Once during mufti-day, my other friend commented that I looked good in my outfit, as girls do. My friend however, said really sarcastically, ‘Don’t think so. She’s not the one that Shinee think is hot.’

I was slightly offended by that.

When I confronted her behaviour nicely, all she said was that I was jealous because I could never get a boyfriend and because she was the hotter one that kpop idols were infatuated with…

And now, she’s going to Korea (she’s not Korean) to visit the SM building and Shinee’s dorms because she thinks that once they recognise her, they’ll make her famous and one of them will become her boyfriend.

She told her parents she’s going for a gap year to learn more about Eastern education…

So, I need advice. How do I tell her that she’s acting like a complete and utter anus and a total deluded idiot without losing her friendship? 

s!b: She is my close friend and despite her (major) faults, I do like her a lot and we’re family friends.

s!b2: She is the type that hold grudges. She stills resents me for telling her crush that she ate worms. I was 8. We are not 19. 

UNBIASED OPINION

I anticipated INFINITE’s comeback but when the CHASER came out, I am not INFINITIZED. 

MV: The MV doesn’t even make sense. I laugh when some Inspirits claim that people should think of it in a “deep” way to understand the MV which isn’t exactly the case. Their previous MVs are vague too. 

Song: It definitely has an Infinite feel in it. It is catchy. But there’s something missing. It lacks something that could make you listen to it again and again without getting tired. There’s also a part in the background music that makes me cringe. (don’t tell me I’m deaf cause I’m not. It’s not just pleasant to MY ears when I listen to it.)

Choreo: Meh. Their other choreos are far more powerful. 

Full version of the Hidden Track is the only song that I like in their new album. all in all. it’s just disappointing.

s!b» giving a disapproval about the album on your blog is like making yourself an open target for Inspirits’ wrath.

Not aloud to listen to other genres?

My Asian friends, who aren’t Korean, and my one white friend, think you’re not aloud to listen to any other kind of music if you’re into Kpop. 

I’ll be listening to my iPod, and one of them will take one of my headphones and listen to it. They’ll rip the head phone out of there ear, and say “Why are you listening to white-trash music”. I am white myself, and I told them, “Because I’m WHITE”. They’ll then change the subject. 

Another day, they were all at my house. I went out of the room to talk to my parents. When I came back in they were all on my computer, on my iTunes. I asked them what they were doing and they responded, “I’m deleting all this White-trash music, and your Jpop music”. I became angry, and told them all to leave. As they walked out, they called me a “Wannabe Kpop fan”.

I started listening to EXO-M when they came out. They told me, “Don’t listen to them, most of them are Chinese”. Two of my friends are Chinese, they told me, “We left our music for Kpop”.

I was so fucking confused. I asked them whats wrong with listening to OTHER music other than KPOP. They told me I’m not a true fan because I have to stick to one genre. I couldn’t take them anymore and I left them for my other friends.

S!B they follow me on Tumblr, and I don’t want them to know this is the reason why I stopped talking to them as much.

S!B They’ll probably get there Tumblr ‘friends’ to attack me if I admit this to them.

LOVE LIFE

I think i’m ruining mine & is no one else’s fault just MINE.

before I used to spazz about boys from school, neighbour, parties, etc.

but now I just can’t see other boys as potential boyfriends/ husbands but only idols ><.

I MEAN WHAT? THIS IS SO DELUSIONAL, IS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN yet I would always think other boys are not worth it, only my fave idols, everytime I’m starting to like boys and get all the feelings and flirty situations appear I think that if I get a boyfriend what about them? they don’t have grilfriends so why would I? SO when If I get all lovey~dovey, I stop at a point I would never flirt with a guy, so nothing more happens with guys, and I start thinking I don’t need a boyfriend! just their perfect faces, voices, dancing and performances <3.

the sad part is that probably all of them already have girlfriends .________. so…

should I stop? I don’t want to, it makes me happy!  but logic says I should.

s!b: to my friends it doesn’t seem like I have this kind of obsession, not to this point. they would never suspect since they aren’t fans of anything .-.

s!b: the pressure society puts on you for having a bf or gf is so HUGE that sometimes I feel out of place with out one

AM I WEIRD?!?!?!

i don’t know. i am a blinger, i am addicted to kim jonghyun. i think i am weird but i must not be the only one. as we know jonghyun used a blackberry…onyx type, and i bought it too. recently he changed to iPhone 4s white and i bought it too. he uses Pudding Camera, i use it too. OIAM bought him an iMac and i bought it too.  i just feel like….. if i use the same things he does, i am close to him. i am buying what he is buying (gadget) and i don’t know if i’m wrong.

s!b: this sounds weird

2s!b: my friends don’t know. if they know, they will think i am a……pssh nevermind.

Jay Park - Do What We Do

THIS SONG TURNED ME ON!! SO MUCH!! 

the way Jay singing it in a slower tone makes me think it’s a suitable song for making love. not having sex where is it all about lust. 

it turns me on not because i imagine Jay sing it and making love with me. i get turned on because i see myself making love with a girl that i’m in love with for more than 3.5 years.